Saturday, April 29, 2006

More pink thoughts

Kim is at the forefront of my thoughts again. The flippin' tumor is not shrinking. In fact, it's growing. Argh. I know the doctors are doing everything they can and just need to find the right "cocktail" to give her that will have the desired effect, but it's so frustrating. I am praying fervently for strength for Kim and Anthony and their family. Amazingly, they have that strength. Yes, I know it's what I was praying for, but it's so much more than that. They are an inspiration to me daily.

Please join me in praying for Kim, and for any other women you may know who are battling this insidious monster. Cancer in any form stinks! Annette's mom is in my prayers as well as my young friend Olivia.

For those who have already fought it and are survivors, pray for continued cancer free lives. Mic and Pat fit in that category in my life and I'm so happy that they are healthy now.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Take five

"Borrowed" from a blog that isn't Traci's ;) And modified too.

5 things in my fridge:
~milk
~green grapes
~marble cheese
~bottled water
~leftover chicken strips

5 things in my closet:
~Christa's dresser
~Maya & Becca's dresser
~gift bags
~bathing suits
~boxes of packing peanuts

5 things in my car:
~wet wipes
~toys from Wendy's
~toys from McD's
~bocce ball set
~2 strollers

5 things on my desk:
~cell phone
~tv remote
~several stuffed lambs (a flock?)
~pair of Christa's socks
~guide book for southern California

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

I guess it's official, I'm a parent

Only took me 15 years to admit it :P Remember when you were a kid and you said, even if only to yourself, that you would never treat YOUR OWN KIDS the way your parents treated you? Oh yeah, we had all the answers when we were younger. Hahaha. Some of the things that I have found coming out of my own mouth and I have no idea how because I swore I never would say them:

~~As long as you live under my roof, you'll live by my rules. (pathetic, as if we really want our 12 year old to move out)
~~Don't yell! (said at top volume)
~~I brought you into this world and I can take you out of it. (not me, it's dh that says that one, but it fits in here too)
~~Be nice to your sister/brother. (yeah, sure)
~~Why did you do that? Didn't you know it was wrong? (there is no answer for this)
~~Because I said so, that's why. (my very favourite)

I'm sure there are other gems but I can't think of them off hand. Guess my brain is too petrified due to advanced age.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Flip flop flip flop

How do I know which way is up? I just guess these days :P Matt's got an interview next Monday. It's local. Well, close to local - close enough that we wouldn't move from our community if he gets the job. It's a good job, with benefits and all that, and would give him experience in his chosen field.

BUT

If he gets this job, we won't be moving to the States. And I've got myself all pyched up about it, as has James. In fact, I think James would be upset if we didn't move now, which is a big change from his attitude when the possibility first came up. More flip flops.

So...part of me wants him to get the job here so that we don't have to be apart, don't have to change schools for the kids, don't have to move too quickly (we will still move out of this place, 2 bedrooms for 6 people just ain't cutting it). And the other part wants him to get a different job. I do want him to get a job though...

Sigh.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

It's back!

My computer is home! I missed it, didn't think I would that much, but my goodness, it's my baby. There are some glitches, for some reason the copy we did onto a new hard drive messed up some stuff so I can't check my shaw mail with outlook but it's not a big deal. When dh is done with his exams, I'll let him have a couple hours with my baby and he'll get it back to normal again. Meanwhile, I have my icons and my themes and my desk and everything so I'm one happy camper.

Well, except for the fact that Christa is sick. I hate it when one of the kids is sick. Even worse when they're sick in my bed in the middle of the night :P

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Exam week is here

Dh is writing his first exam as I type this. He has three more (Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday) and then he is done. That's it. Nothing left but the student loan debt after that. So, it's bite the bullet time, right? I wonder where we'll live. I wonder where he'll work. I wonder when we'll move. I wonder if we'll be able to sell this place. I wonder if we'll have any money to move with. Life is full of surprises, why can't I know even one of them in advance?

Eventually I will make sense again, I hope.

I miss my computer.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Sad shocked and stunned

I know I'm obsessing so feel free to skip this post. I am so overwhelmed today, I just can't focus on anything else. A friend from my September 02 message board emailed me late last night to tell me that her 6yo son died on Sunday. He was only six. He didn't seem terribly ill, they thought he just had the flu. When he wasn't getting better, they headed out to take him to urgent care and before they even left the house, he died in his father's arms. Karen said they don't know why, they've ruled out meningitis and an aneurysm and just don't know. I wish I knew what to do, what to say, what to think. Karen and Scott and Allison, you're in my prayers. Jason, sweet 6 year old, I'll see you someday and give you a great big hug then.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Good thing Traci posts these things!

Otherwise what would I have to post?

The Rules:
1. I can only say YES or NO!
2. I am NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments/messages me and asks!

Have I ever...

Taken a picture naked? : no
Made out with a member of the same sex? : no
Danced in front of your mirror? : no
Told a lie? : yes
Gotten in a car with people you just met?: no
Been in a fist fight? : no
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? : yes
Been arrested? : no
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? : yes
Seen someone die? : no
Kissed a picture? : no
Slept in until 3? : no
Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? : yes
Played dress up? : yes
Fallen asleep at work? : no
Had sex at work? : no
Felt an earthquake? : yes
Touched a snake? : yes
Ran a red light? : yes
Been in a car accident? : no
Pole danced? : no
Been lost? : yes
Sang karaoke? : yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? : yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? : no
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? : yes
Kissed in the rain? : no
Sang in the shower? : yes
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? : yes
Sat on a roof top? : no
Played chicken? : yes
Raised chickens? : no
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? : no
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? : no
Broken a bone? : yes
Mooned/flashed someone? : no
Forgotten someone's name? : yes
Slept naked? : yes
Blacked out from drinking? : no
Played a prank on someone? : yes
Felt like killing someone? : no
Made a parent cry? : no
Cried over someone? : yes
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? : yes
Had/Have a dog? : yes
Been in a band? : no
Drank 25 sodas in a day? : no
Shot a gun? : no

Thursday, April 06, 2006

They're baaaaaaaaaaaack


I just love this time of year! It's kind of bittersweet this year though as it's the last time I will see the Snowbirds practice. They come to the Comox AFB every spring, I'll miss them when I go south. They're flying as I type this, man are they LOUD!!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Another "I stole this from Traci" post

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see you? Boondocks - Little Big Town
Will I have a happy life? The Dance - Garth Brooks
What do my friends really think of me? Bless the Broken Road - Rascal Flatts
What do people secretly think of me? I'm Already There - Lonestar
How can I be happy? The River - Garth Brooks
What should I do with my life? Ain't Goin' Down 'Til the Sun Comes Up - Garth Brooks
Will I ever have children? When the Sun Goes Down - Kenny Chesney & Uncle Kracker
What is some good advice for me? Keeper of my Heart - Mercy Me
How will I be remembered? Long Black Train - Josh Turner
What is my signature dancing song? Moondance - Michael Buble
What do I think my current theme song is? When I Get Where I'm Going - Brad Paisley & Dolly Parton
What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Standing Outside the Fire - Garth Brooks
What song will play at my funeral? Who Says You Can't Go Home - Bon Jovi & Jennifer Nettles
What type of men/women do you like? Let the River Flow - Steven Curtis Chapman
What is my day going to be like? Good Ride Cowboy - Garth Brooks

Okay, pretty much all of them don't make sense! Except for the current theme song and the song played at my funeral :) Although if I had to choose something from my playlist to play at my funeral, it would much more likely be Mercy Me's Homesick. And I have a LOT of Garth on my playlist!!

Monday, April 03, 2006

Brace yourself, I'm gonna whine...

My computer is going away! Whaaaaaaa!! I was just getting over the weeks that I had to share it with the kids (read James 'cause he's a puter hog) while their computer was dead, and now mine has to go to the computer hospital :( It's minor, one of my speakers isn't working which really doesn't matter to me as I usually use headphones anyway, but as the sound card is the culprit and the sound card is part of the motherboard, that means that something more crucial could go on me as well. Dh called the manufacturer - it's still under warranty, yay! - and we have to ship it to ONTARIO. For those not familiar with Canadian geography, it's three time zones away!! So for at least two weeks I will be begging computer time from dh & the kids. Ugh. I'm going to back up everything on my hard drive so that, if they mess up I won't lose anything. But I'll miss *my* computer. I know, get over it, at least we have other computers so I won't be offline totally AND it is covered by warranty so we won't be out of pocket. Gee, way to ruin a good whine by looking at the bright side :\

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Sunday afternoon thoughts

I went to church by myself this morning. I did take Becca, but she was in Sunday school the whole time, so it was like I went alone. Anyway, the guest speaker was really good and I enjoyed the message she gave. Except for one thing. Part of what she said was that humans are wonderfully made and are exactly what God wants us to be, personality and all. So we should be happy to be who we are, and happy with what others are as well, as long as they aren't trying to be something they aren't. Well, that immediately made me think of dh and the anger issues he has, in particular with the kids. Not to get into it again, many of you have already heard this before. Suffice to say that he has issues and that I have issues with his issues. If what this lady said is true, it follows that dh is who he is, anger and all, and we should just accept it. I'm having a tough time with this one. From what I've read and studied, everyone has things they need to work on, and I firmly believe that dh's anger is not from the Lord and needs to be worked on. I don't think we as a family need to just accept it.